More

I'm so tired, yet so very restless. There must be more! The things which appear before my eyes just cannot be all there is. Is this really what life is about? Surround yourself with pretty things; pretty rooms, pretty clothes... There MUST be more! Day after day its the same. We may be dying inside, but we must look good on the outside. We pretend so well, that we don't even feel the death taking hold of our spirits! What we hide from others becomes hidden even from us. We deceive ourselves! We think we are so well and whole, when in reality we are diseased and crippled. We think we are so rich and wise and spiritual. We're not. We're poor, and foolish, and limping or even crawling spiritually because You are not our Center. We call ourselves 'Christ Followers', yet we are too busy with our meaningless little lives to even make it to church on time. We don't follow You too well when there are so many other things to do.
We have clothed our desperation in fine looking garments of pride and self-sufficiency, but they hold no warmth. The garment You offer is 100 times more fine than ours, and it is warm and comfortable! Why do we reject it in favour of our ratty costumes?
Your presence left us long ago, but we hardly even noticed, being so busy with jobs, activities, and making sure our lives look good to others.
Bah! So tired! Everything is meaningless! Everything but You, and my desperation for you. Fill me once more with Your presence! I repent of my wickedness; my attraction to what is carnal! Please, don't hide Your presence from me any longer, or I will die! I need You! I unclothe my desperation and lay it bare at Your feet! Take it and replace it with the fullness of Your everlasting Spirit!
There IS more; I know it! Lord, I need more! More of You!

What Happened

What happened to the way things used to be, when You and I were so close?
What happened to the times we spent together in the morning glow?
I once could feel You near me; now you seem so far away.
It takes all the strength I have to get through each day.
I used to know Your presence with me everywhere I'd go.
Now I struggle just to tell myself that even still I know
That You really haven't left me, You are with me still.
But there's a hole within me that only You can fill.
So let me feel Your presence, Lord. Let me know Your touch.
Lay your hand upon me, for I need you oh so much!
Breathe Your life into me for I need to be renewed.
Pull me back together before I come unglued.
I need to know You're here; to feel You by my side.
I know my need for You is one that will not be denied.

Oct. 14th, 08

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O, the sight! Bloodshed all around. To think the blind are blessed to not see this carnage. To consider that the deaf have been favoured among men because they hear not the anguished wail & lament of those that lost whom they loved. Ah, the dead may be glad they lived not to know the suffering; the torment that we, the alive must bear.
What misery! Such wretchedness my heart cannot comprehend! We were made for other than this bitter existence. Ah remorse, I feel you keenly within my chest. See, the sun rises red, revealing the field of bodies before me; unveiling the consummation of a hopeless battle.
O, life's grievous end.


Oct. 28th, 08

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My beloved, how I long to hold you close in My arms and whisper sweet words of love in your ear.
How My heart aches when you encounter difficulties in life, and even more so when you don't come to me for help and comfort.
Oh, how I yearn to converse with you and divulge to you secrets only heaven knows, but you aren't listening.
How I desire intimacy with you; to be involved in every aspect of your life, no matter how great or small.
You hear My voice calling to you; wooing and drawing you, but you make no reply.
Oh my precious one, I've so much more for you than the life you're living!
How long will you break my heart and walk away from Me?
How long, beloved?

Oct. 14th, 2008

My Beloved

Have you ever doubted My heart for you? Is that why you find it so hard to ask for My help when you are in such great need? Have faith in your heavenly Father. Know that My promises to you are true.

If you ask of Me, you will receive. Not on your terms, but on Mine. If you seek Me you will find Me; I will come to you. If you knock, I will open the door for you. I have spoken; I have promised; I have invited you to come to me. Now I am awaiting your response.

I long to spend time alone with you, My beloved. Sometimes it is hard for you to be transparent with Me when there are others around. So get away somewhere private, in your room or in a quiet garden. And when you come to Me in secret, I will demonstrate My goodness to you before many. They will know of My love for you.

If you wonder whether I desire to bless you, think about this: Even evil people know how to give good gifts to their children. So just imagine how much more I not only want to, but also can do for you, if you will just ask Me. For I am your heavenly Father, the Lord who delights in those who put their hope in My unfailing love.

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Come

Come, let me embrace you. Let your heart rest on mine as they beat in sync.
Come, let me hold you. Feel my arms of comfort; a stronghold around you, keeping you safe.
Come, let me gaze into your eyes. Look into mine and see the endless depth of my love for you.
Come, let me whisper into your heart the wonderful and amazing things I have planned for you.
Come, let me breathe my life into your soul so you may truly live.
Come, let me be everything you need. Let me be your all.

October 7th, 2008