My Soulmate

I know not who you are,
Yet my heart is rapturous at the thought of you.
I know not what you look like,
But my mind sees you vividly.
I know not your characteristics or traits,
Still my heart thrills at the very idea of spending a lifetime loving you.

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Now playing: Destiny's Child - Girl
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The Experience

Silence fills my ears
Nothing is all I hear
Daylight fades to black
There's no turning back
Then I feel myself falling
And I hear myself calling
Suddenly, nothing.

Slowly I blink my eyes
I look around with surprise
I'm blinded by the purest light
I behold a wonderful sight
I can hear the angels singing
And a hallelujah chorus ringing
Then, He's before me
And everything else fades away...

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Now playing: Enya - A Day Without Rain
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Alone

I am alone. Very alone.
I stare up at the vast, empty sky,
And think aloud; "Is this all there is to life?"
I walk through the silent woods. I am alone.
Utterly and completely alone.
Not a bird is chirping, not a squirrel is scampering.
My heart longs to be filled.
It is crowded. I am standing amidst a thousand people.
Still, I am alone; dreadfully alone.
My soul is screaming, but no words reach my lips.
At last, I manage a feeble utterance, "God, help me!"
Suddenly, I'm not alone.

My Beloved

My Beloved

I know that you have become weary and feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. Come to Me and I will give you rest. Bring all your anxiety and fear to Me and leave them with Me. I will keep you in perfect peace when you keep your mind on Me and trust Me. I care about you.

Know that I have given you My peace. I do not give to you as the world gives... and takes away. So do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid. I will fill you with joy and peace if you will trust in Me.

Instead of dwelling on confusion and anxiety, present your concerns to Me in prayer. And be thankful. Then let your mind dwell on things that are true and noble, things that are right and pure, things that are lovely and admirable ~ all that is excellent and praiseworthy. And the peace you will have ~ My peace ~ you will not be able to explain to others. No one can understand it, but you can have it.

Live your life according to My instructions, and I will be with you; because I am the God of peace, My peace will stand guard over your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

Annonymous

Feelings

My heart aches; my soul yearns for that one who will be there forever.
The one who will be by my side through the good times & the bad, through times of happiness & times of grieving, through seasons of boredom & of uncertainties. My body longs, yes aches to be touched; embraced; held.
My heart desires to be loved, and to love in return with a love that never dies. My hands quiver with anticipation & desperation when I think of my love coming for me. Where is this one whom I love with my whole heart? Let me find him quickly! Let him come to me!
August 13th 2007
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Now playing: Enya - A Day Without Rain
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Poetry From Past Years

Some poems I wrote a while ago...

El Shaddai
Eyes blazing like the hottest fire,
Feet like burnished bronze.
A double-edged sword coming out of His mouth
As He speaks into the beyond.
Head and hair; white as wool.
He wears a sash of gold.
His face shines like the bright noon sun;
A strong face- kind and bold.
His voice like that of water flows,
The sound so rich and sweet:
Like a waterfall, or ocean tide,
With water oh so deep.
A beautiful fragrance can be sensed
Whenever He is near.
And with those feet of His, so swift and sure,
He can run, and run, just like the deer.
So beautiful a man is He,
To see Him in His place;
Enthroned in awesome majesty,
With mercy, love and grace.
When you look upon His lovely face,
Are you filled with dread and doom?
If you are, prepare your heart;
For behold; He's coming soon!!
June 8th 2004


Her Daddy
The Father held her in His arms;
Keeping her safe from all harm;
She wasn't really all that smart;
But she had a real enormous heart.
Kids at school would laugh and yell;
'She's retarded, can't you tell'?
She'd just smile when insults they'd hurl;
And say 'I'm Daddy's little girl'.
She tried to tell them of His love,
They wouldn't listen though;
They didn't believe in God above.
She was special,
The other kids couldn't see;
But it didn't matter to her,
She'd just be all she could be.
That's all she could do,
And all that Daddy would want.
You see, God was her Daddy,
So it didn't matter to Him,
Whether she was retarded or not;
He still loved His little girl;
He really loved her alot!
Then one day while walking to school,
She thought it would be pretty cool;
To see the birds in the park out yonder,
So she went off track and began to wander.
She stepped out onto the street,
Not seeing two cars about to meet.
The two cars crashed with her in the center;
This was much more than a fender bender.
The little girl wasn't in any pain;
Her Daddy was there,
And He took her away.
Now she's safe in His arms,
Not knowing any harm.
Her time had come,
And now she's at home;
With her Daddy.
December 27th 2006


Saved
He smiled at her, and she saw tears in His eyes.
She felt she was the one who was going to cry.
She had just given Him her life,
Now He was in control.
Wherever He went, she wanted to follow.
As she walked down the street,
She wanted to tell all she'd meet;
Of the wonderful Person she saw;
When she looked at Him, she was filled with awe.
She had been about to jump off a bridge,
Over a river by a mountain ridge.
Then, she jumped; eager to end it all,
When Someone caught her and broke her fall.
She stared at Him with fear in her eyes;
He looked so sad; like He was about to cry.
He said to her, "please don't be scared.
I was with you when no one else cared."
As He held her, she told Him about her fears.
When she was finished, He wiped away her tears.
All of a sudden, she felt so good.
He'd made her feel better than any drugs would.
She knew exactly what she had to do;
Forgive herself, and ask Him to forgive her too.
"All's forgiven my daughter", He said.
All at once she was safe in her bed.
Was it all a dream, she wondered and wondered.
Then, she'd remembered how that day she had blundered.
Right away, she again saw His face.
No, it hadn't been a dream, she had been in that place.
Now she knows, that He is always there,
Holding her in His tender loving care.
Now, she can talk to Him, and tell Him her fears,
And He'll quietly whisper into her ear:
"Always remember that this is true;
You'll always be mine, and I'll always love you."
June 8th 2004




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Now playing: Enya - A Day Without Rain

Not Alone

So, this is my first blog... Basically, I'm gonna do what my header says; just use this as a place I can vent or post songs or poems I write.
Below is a song I wrote recently after going out with a couple of friends who make up the 'Heartbeat Street Team'. These women go downtown in the evenings and pretty much walk around talking to and making friends with the street people there. It was a pretty amazing experience being with them this one time, and just watching how the people trust and open up to them.



Not Alone

Hopeless, helpless, all alone
Feeling worthless, so far from home
No-one around to show they care
Nobody asks how you got there

Wandering, aimless through darkened streets
Nameless, faceless, like most you meet
No-one looks up & sees your tears
Nobody around to calm your fears

But you are not alone
There is One who cares
Just run into His arms
You will find healing there

Wondering how you fell so far
Who you should be isn't who you are
It really hasn't been that long since
It seemed so right; how did it go so wrong?

But you are not alone
There is One who cares
Just run into His arms
You will find healing there